an apple each day

2012-02-02T02:19:00.000+08:00

I'm falling in love again, with the same person. Over and over again.

To my only one in Kuala lumpur.

Hasanah Zafi

2011-12-29T15:35:00.001+08:00

always give it a shot no matter how hard it may be. =)
falling doesn't always mean failing, it means you gotta stand up and try harder to get it better.
if you can't kick yourself to be better, someone else will.

~that was what my beloved skating coach taught me years ago.
Muhammad Rasul, he was always there to kick me when i start to laze around in the rink.

2011-11-03T02:24:00.002+08:00

Many people who are in love is lucky to see their love ones almost everyday or every week, some people get to hug and kiss their love ones each time they meet, some people are lucky to talk and spend time with their bf. some people are lucky to be able to message their love ones everyday asking how they are, have they eaten and etc? some people get to have a proper dinner with their bf, some people get to spend time studying together and smiling at their guy and giving mushy flying kisses. some people are lucky to have their bf fetching them off from work or school. Some people get to celebrate special moments. Some people get time to know their other half a whole lot better each day.
Truely its a blessing. But to a percentage of those people in love, some of us don't get any of that privileged, and one of them is me.

I can't express what i feel right in front of him. I can't stop thinking what is going on there with him. I can't help feeling insecure because he is far. I can't help wishing I'm there with him. I can't help it that we can't be together in the same country. I only get to meet him once a year and if I'm lucky this year i got to meet him twice if I'm not mistaken. The time spend was only about 2 hours. That 2 hrs is spend on trying to fix things that went wrong when we were in different countries. I can't help blushing when i look at him cause its so hard not to look at the physical changes he went thru. I can't help crying , or hiding my tears cause i know the moment will pass by us fast. I can't help fighting my emotions wanting to hold him, hug him and kiss him which i can't. I can't help it when i see him after so long, my heart skip a beat. I can't help having butterflies when i talk to him. I can't help being amazed with his British accent. I can't help smiling when he says my name with love. I can't help that this happens for a reason. I can't help that he noticed i turned away. I can't help it that i love him despite being separated for 4 years plus. I feel sad not being able to celebrate his birthday. I can't help giving such a long text telling him how it is here in my country and waiting for a response. There is so much more i would have wanted to talk to you about. I wanna grow old with you.

We've pushed thru all odds, despite not being in that much contact, thru online or media or real life. I can't help having this feelings and emotions of falling for him over and over again. You know I've promised I'll never let you go. Despite breaking up always because of the distance, we kept coming back and that alone gave me hope. As much as i can never express how i feel towards you. I wish you do know how i feel staying here and just overcoming things.

And yes, i know im pushing myself to work and study at the same time. I have great friends here. One of them would be Sabrina, she pushed me and remind me to get ahead with life. I'm taking small step at a time, so i wouldn't fall hard. And so is my love life.

And sometimes, i understand why are we in different countries. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
one thing- u need to concentrate and finish your studies.
as for me, i need to work and save up. Other than that if we were in the same countries, we would have been investing alot of time and money for the love that has no assurance of a marriage. Atleast for now, we are chilling, we know we are friends and we know we have deep feelings for each other, and we know we are young and we know we need to get to the top before being together. I love you. And I realise now i feel better not having people knowing about us, only a few of my closefriends. Because it would have certainly blow up and we could have crashed.

only my heart can express how it feels, but it stays there till the day you say I do.

~apple foolishfruit
Hasanah Zafi.

AISHITERU ( Menunggu )-by ZIVILIA BAND

2011-10-28T01:00:00.000+08:00

<3 to my hero.

2011-10-26T02:05:00.003+08:00

IM SO IN LOVE WITH HIM FOREVER. HE MET MY MUM AND MY MUM WAS SUPER FINE WITH IT. SHE EVEN SAID I TRUST YOU. =D SUPER DUPER HAPPY. I GUESS TODAY IS ONE OF THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE , THAT HE MET MY MUM AND ALL IS COOL. AND HE WAS SUPER FINE HOT BOO OF MINE. I GUESS AM FINE WITH HIM NOW SINCE I WAS SO ANGRY WITH HIM GETTING A CAR BT ALL IS WELL. I GUESS WE DO HAVE OUR UPS AND DOWNS. BEFORE MEETING HIM, MUM ASKED I THOUGHT YOU BROKE UP WITH HIM AND I SAID YEAH WE DID BUT WE ARE BACK TOGETHER AND SHE SAID IF HE DOESNT WANT YOU ANYMORE, THERE ARE ALOT MORE GUYS, YOU ARE STILL YOUNG. BUT HE CAME BACK AND WE ARE AS GOOD AND SOLID AS EVER. YEAH I KNOW ILL BE WAITING FOR HIM STILL. AND I LOVE HIM SO MUCH SO SO SO SO MUCH AND I KNOW I HAVE NO EXPLANATION FOR THAT BUT WHAT THE HECK. LOVE IS UNEXPLAINABLE AND FOR US TO CONTAIN IT IN SUCH A WAY. =) ILL PRAY WE ARE STRONG AS WE ARE AS WE FACE THE FUTURE TOGETHER ,AS FOR NOW IN DIFFERENT COUNTRIES. GOSH I'M LIKE AS IF SEEING HIM FOR THE FIRST TIME AND BEING IN LOVE WITH HIM OVER AND OVER AGAIN. OK I SHOULD GO OFF NOW BEFORE I RATTLE OUT SO MUCH MORE. OTHER THAN THAT I HAD A GREAT TIME WITH MY BESTIE NOSHAINI! FOREVER IN LOVE WITH HER TOO.

<3 APPLE.

2011-10-20T03:09:00.001+08:00

That one person who;
1.) Is always on your mind whether you like it or not.
2.)Even when you say you hate them,you end up taking it back quickly.
3.) Makes you secretly love them.
4.)makes you want to have another moment with them that you'll never forget, because there's never enough moments with the.
5.) Always makes you feel better, even if its just a little bit.
Like if you have that person in your life thats stuck to you not by their will or your will.(:

2011-10-19T01:17:00.002+08:00

Muhammad Lawan says:
I will miss u in every beats of my heart, in every blink of my eyes, in every second of time and in every moments of the day

out of sudden i miss Jibril. I mean his like seriously a brother and companion to me in Singapore. Other than the others. But he is really islamic and always reminded me to not to stray. But now, we don't even talk anymore when he back to naija. oh well. such is life.

2011-10-19T01:07:00.001+08:00

how can i face the person who said all that to me
who made me feel like a worm dying
[c=55][b][i]Melting The Snow[/i][/b][/c] says:
you can face me by showing up here
foolishfruit says:
a worm that can never see the sunlight
a worm that is blind
that thinks he will get above the earth
but he couldnt
he never did
cause he hit on the tree roots
and got stuck
and struggle
and eventually died there
just being a decomposition of mother nature

sweet revenge.

2011-10-19T00:33:00.001+08:00

I've learned that from Bleach, whatever that is broken can be healed and piece it back, if there is a scar, it will heal with time. It is there to remind us, in order that it would never be repeated ever again. From there, we plan our revenge. ♥
THE REVENGE WE SEEK TO HEAL THE SCAR.

-apple foolishfruit.

2011-10-14T01:07:00.001+08:00

When a girl is quiet
Millions of things running in her mind.
When a girl is not arguing.
She is thinking deeply.
When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,
She is wondering how long you will be around.
When a girl answers "I'm fine" after a few seconds,
She is not at all fine.
When a girl stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying.
When a girl lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a girl calls you everyday,
She is seeking for you attention.
When a girl texts you everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once.
When a girl says "I love you",
She means it.
When a girl says that she can't live without you,
She has made up her mind that you are her future.
When a girl says "I miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more than that.

2011-10-06T00:35:00.001+08:00

That horrible feeling when you want to text that one person more than anything,
But you know deep down that even if you did they would never answer.

2011-10-05T20:47:00.003+08:00

i got my passport! atlast! damn it i didnt get any letter but i went to the authority and they told me they found my identity card. So i collected both of them today! so long after being an illegal person in my own country. hahaha. oh well, now having a passport, i hv no idea whether should i still go for my planned fucked up trip that got delayed or nope because i don't know how am i suppose to contact him. cuz nx mth i would be in 3 months probation and i wouldn't get to go out from Singapore either. =( so confused. sigh.

2011-10-05T01:26:00.003+08:00

if i could express my feelings and love everywhere about us, i would have truely done so. but i can't at all, infact not much people know about us. infact i can say i don't think your friends ever know who is the person you love cause it never showed anywhere. i used to love the fact it is a secret but after your last msg. i guess it kinda kills that i guess. sorry for not being there with you. and sorry for asking you to stay here with me. i do want a real date with u , myb someday.

sigh

2011-10-05T01:04:00.004+08:00

Its Hard When you have to watch the person you love, love someone else.

i guess i really did hurt him. I don't know what else to do. Today some elderly talk to me in marrying somebody and im like i have nothing wit him. I don't even know whether it was really me ,because he talked about whether he can marry a muslim. At that point of time, all i feel was guilt. How in the world am i his first love in singapore when i know he was dating someone before me.
That matters aside, I don't even know how am i suppose to ever get my boyfriend back. After all that happened, yeah i couldn't deny the fact i love the guy in singapore but then again when i was with this guy in singapore, i went over to k.l just to meet him. Its like i really love him, i truely do but there is nothing i can do to prove to him or what. Cause all he can see is the love i have for another. Then again, i keep feeling lost and confused each time he give me this we are friends with deep feelings, or we are not together. And i know he has kept himself for 4 years and being so clean , he is disgusted by me and that really scares me. And im grateful for his existance but sometimes i just want him to make his stand so i know whether i should still wait for him. I am waiting but i guess he thinks im doing craps here. I guess things has been hard for him to see me writing love things about someone else and he only had me. But i wish he know how i was struggling here too. I pushed myself away from the crowd so i wouldn't be seen as if im mingling. I only had sabrina here to hang out till morning and now she isn't here. And those people i know are back in Nigeria. Its like really you think i wanna be with Melvin? yeah i would hv been with him if i want to but i don't. To think i cry to Mlvn telling him that my passport isn't done and i want to be there for YOUR birthday and not be in this country. So does this means i love mlvn more than you? No i don't think so. yeah at times im like i dont want to be with u because i want to be with you but the distance and i know u dont trust me. it hurts ok. and now after all uve said, yeah you doubting me, and im feeling the same way too. But i know i love you mister hero of mine. And i wish u try to understand that in any circumstances, i still do. I just hope u are good there in k.l and yeah im coping here as hard as it seems. I'm still smiling. =) cause only myself knows how i feel for you. and words can never be expressed it all. oh well im still young, and i just wanna save up for my education and then be truely independent on my own. So for now, ill just keep waiting till i'm much more matured to think about all this love stuff. =) thank you the break but im not going to look for another boyfriend here. cause it was all YOU that is in my heart. i might love mlvn but as a friend. a closefriend of mine that is. am not trying to convince anybody at all.

2011-10-03T16:07:00.002+08:00

If I were to die, would you go to my funeral?
If I were to end up in the hospital, would you visit me?
If you saw a couple holding hands, would you wish it was us?
If you were to flip a coin, heads we're together, would you secretly hope it landed heads?
If you saw a shooting star would you wxixsxhx for us to be together?
If another girl told you she loved you, would you love her instead?
If another guy flirted with me, would you be jealous?
If I cried in front of you, would you comfort me?

If I needed you, would you be there?

sabby sabby sabby

2011-10-03T15:32:00.002+08:00

=D ok today i woke up with a news. full time baby! got to wake up early now. oh well lucky me i wouldn't have much commitment online except for sabrina daily skype call. and yeah got to save up for the trip on visiting her hopefully. not only that save up for school. ok big dreams yo! so hahaha. need to lessen on my eating and gaming that is. and phone bills would be obviously low as i wouldn't be using it much. ok gotta really pushed up with this changes. and no taxi all the time! gosh i miss Sabrina. =(

[MMV] i Love you but

2011-10-03T02:00:00.000+08:00

yeah so much like he told me. Found the perfect song for it.

got dumped again =(

2011-10-03T00:58:00.003+08:00

sabrina has reached wichita. and she likes it there. =) oh well im going to bloody miss her alot, and so did melvin reach nigeria.

today at work, me and camellia had fun. hanging out with jake, kevin and michelle. funny part of it is there was this korea guy that it looks like camellia fancy him. so jake and his british accent was like you fancy him. and out of sudden, this korean ask jake for a present card to play with, so jake give the card to camellia and she wanted to pass it to him and he just wave it off. and i know it was kinda bad , but yeah bunch of us just started laughing and camellia ran in malu malu. =D then we keep teasing her.

oh well i guess working at the arcade has it perks. hehe. as much i was really upset when i woke up, i truely have awesome customers. like for real. i don't like whites, as racist as i am, but jake is different. well he is 13 for a start and him talking to me and always calling Apple Apple and somehow he is the only white guy i can stand. Its kinda weird actually. I guess thats because he is really friendly and he even thinks im cool. oh well. i guess without jake, michelle and kevin , i would hv really been in a stinky mood. Let's not forget Camellia and the craziness we have tgtr.

oh well , i know i know im hiding my sadness thru all this laughter. i mean what else can i do. he doesn't want to be together. other than that everything is my fault right. and ive tried really hard to make things out with him. if only my passport would come. but like he said , why would he want me to be back aniways with everything that happened. He is disgusted by me. That really upset me because if i know this would ever happened, i would have meet maryam longer, but i prioratise him. Yeah like seriously so what about melvin, its not like melvin would be asking me to be with him or whatever shit. I guess i just miss melvin that is why i talk about him to this so called bf of mine. i didnt meant in such a way that i want to be with melvin forever or what. and so what that i cried. a whole bunch of my friends and my bestfriend went off on the same night. even if i tell him, he wouldn't believe it. At times i wish i do listen to sabby about how i should just move on because if this guy don't believe me, don't even want to come to singapore to see what i do all the time. There is no way he would think im not doing anything. Now that Sabby is back in states, am really lonely u know and i feel like bursting to tears. I guess we really spend so much time together till morning all the time. As for melvin, when my bf breaks up with me, he is the one who keeps reassuring me that this k.l guy would come back and i should get a grip on my life. Its like he pushed me to have faith on my relationship when im like nah its over he don't love me. I can't do anything else except smile. I'm still growing up and even if i cry a thousand times, he wouldn't come back or even come to Singapore to get me to be his. Painful isn't it. Yeah it is. So I'll just live on. Cheers.

convo with camellia jang:

apple :i still want to wait for him.
camellia : seriously? you can wait for him under the coconut tree. waiting for his presence.
apple : ??? lol.

-credits from camellia jang.

thankGod for a new day, a new beginning. and yeah i know he block me off skype too.
block me off in every aspect of life. there's nothing else i can do but just keep going on, by my own.

apple foolishfruit.

2011-09-30T23:13:00.002+08:00

choji said to my mum that Hasanah is really a naughty girl =(
other than that choji reassured me he will come back.
and oh yeah im single. =D not that i want it to be that but guess it wasn't meant to be. Ive tried really to be with him despite the distance and all odds. I guess asking him to come to Singapore to complete his education is im speechless. Oh well. Im lost of words actually. He actually commented that Melvin would come back so all is well?
priceless really when im asking him to be here. like wow. So it kinda sums up the idea that somehow ill end up with melvin back again? is that what he thinks. argh. if that happens, this time aint going to be my fault.

thank you for blocking me off in every aspect of your life.
makes it much more easier to move on.

~hasanah.

Slipknot - Dead Memories

2011-09-30T23:10:00.000+08:00

To: My guy of 4 years in K.L.

exactly how i feel right now. Thank you for making it crystal clear.

melvin

2011-09-26T02:09:00.004+08:00

i met melvin yesterday. we talked. he told me i was disobedient that was why he broke up with me. He didnt want me to meet the guy in k.l when i was with him and i still did.other than that he didnt like it when i was talking to all these minahs and he said he told me not to talk to them and i still did and also because he told me to stop messaging dewi and i didnt. gosh atleast he should hv asked first really. but its ok. cause if not i wouldn't hv know omar aniways and got back with my bf in k.l. we talked alot. and i felt better hanging out with him. when he reminded me how i should be afraid that if a guy gives specific reason why he love you. be very afraid. eg when the guys says he love you because you are cute, one day when u are not, he would'nt love you. melvin has been awesome. somehow i cried infront of him, tried to act like i didn't and the next thing iphone is flash on my face. And he asked why, i told him because i just recalled everything about us. And i got really emo and cried again. And he said its ok, when im back, i will study with you again ok. =) then i was crying badly more and i told him im not studying anymore. then he said its ok. and then before i go off, he said when im back i don't wanna see that and it should be gone. (my tummy).atleast that gave me hope of him coming back. he has been really a good friend to me, a good boyfriend too. and up till now i can't stop crying that he is leaving me here. well i would never forget yesterday.

what melvin had did to make me happy
~he studied with me
~we hang out at the library studying.
~we had lunch, dinner together.
~we watch movie.
~he taught me economics and he can't stop staring at me to study
~he cooked for me and also fed me
~always reminded me and being strict
~always there.
~always make me laugh
~always touch my nose
~telling that my hair used to be really soft and now its rough. (he rmbs) =)
~and telling me i have such nice teeth
~and a whole lot more

despite him hurting me , he had tried his best to not to hurt me. he came back stood there for me, and when he had a gf, he didn't tell me because he said he didn't want me to be hurt. well at first it didn't make sense cause i have a bf. and he has been patient with me despite me being crappy and stuffs. he kinda paid his dues. and now i feel really sad that he is leaving me and im really afraid i would never meet him again. and again with the bloody tears. well this post is for you my dear ex bf from naija. Uve been a gem. Honestly , i really can't hate you as much as i want to. Cause to me, we do click just that i was disobedient about somethings which really had bothered you. You know Abiye Melvin Otobo Choji, you've been awesome. As everything u were to me. Please don't ever forget me my dear ex bf. Thank you for existing in my life here in Singapore. I really appreciate your presence minus the hurt. I hope what i feel is somehow what you do feel too. Takecare Melvin when you are back in Naija! And come back fast! cause then you will see when you are back, my tummy wont be here anymore. Like what u've said to me, that should be gone. It will so you better be back and we can hang out more my friend.

p.s im really sorry for hurting you when i said about my feelings for the guy in k.l when you were deeply in love with me. and repeated that again cause of you know what.
and still loving me despite what i said. I know you still love me too but I really hurt you. my bet Melvin. its past right. thats what u kept telling me so both of us will move on. yeah it is past. =) and u did say you thought things would work out with us bt its past. i get that too. but u know what melv, we are awesome as friends. And you know that. =) so what the past is, our future aint that bleak u know.

~Hasanah.

2011-09-12T01:32:00.002+08:00

I wouldnt say much but i just got dumped like a few mins ago after four years. Well partly caused its my fault and its because what happened with me and alex. I guess i have not been someone to him. So keep it short and simple. Its done. Byebye the last time from him.

Wasted my money and time doing my passport to come.
Wasted my money buying his present and i wouldnt be able to give him.
So i guess, no point of coming back unless to see Noshaini.
Wasted coming to visit him , prioratise him when Maryam was in Malaysia.
I could hv been spending time with Maryam instead.
So all is well.

takecare.

apple.

All Good Things (Come To An End) (US Version)

2011-08-26T04:32:00.000+08:00

Beyoncé - Best Thing I Never Had

2011-08-24T21:24:00.000+08:00

To: alexander McRuhweza =)

Happy 21st bdae to me!

2011-07-08T04:46:00.003+08:00

Happy bdae to me and congrats to those who left me.
> my closefriend f
> and alexander mcruhweza.

: thank you for existing in my life and thus taught me lessons i wouldn't have learnt.

wont be talking much this year. all i know i got older and its kinda sucks right now.

oh well, have a great year ahead and may life be much more better than having u know who they are in my life.

best part is I love them more than i did love myself, so kinda hurtful isnt it to see they are not in your life anymore.

oh well, am doing well, moving on. cause if they loved me, they would stay. but they didnt and yeah shits happens all the time. no worries. i understand. You guys were too good for me. oh shucks then. Don't worry, am having fun in arcade cause that is where i am all the time.

maybe i just deserve all this hurt then.

apple

2011-07-07T22:02:00.001+08:00

I'm Done.
 I'm done texting you first.
I'm done hoping you'll call.
I'm done crying myself to sleep. 
I'm done trying to figure out what I did.  I'm done wishing you'll come back. 
Because you're just not
worth it anymore.

A teens - For All That I Am of

2011-07-03T04:25:00.002+08:00

For Abdul Syafiq and Ephraim Davon. Sorry for hurting you guys with my words and actions.

2011-06-06T02:36:00.001+08:00

Do u have any idea how hard I'm trying to face each day without questioning your whereabouts?

-apple

2011-06-02T23:16:00.000+08:00

Hasanah Zafi
Just because I've masked myself, doesn't mean I'm not hurt at all. Scars takes time to heal. Memories may not always fade, they may be stuck there in your mind to remind you of the pain you went thru.

-apple

2011-06-02T20:47:00.001+08:00

have you ever
laid on your bed at night & just cried ?
cried because you're ugly.
because you're not good enough.
you counted all your flaws from
head to toe to punish & feel worse
about yourself. cried because the
comments people blurt out, actually
hurt your feelings. cried because your
family is dysfunctional, but you're just a kid
who can't do sh●t about it. they tell you to
stop complaining, that you have it much
better than the kids in Africa. you don't want
to be a burden, so you bottle it all up.
around people, you're the happiest ray
of sunshine. but nobody knows, that at
night when you're alone, you break down
& just cry.

Maryam Mn

2011-06-02T02:31:00.002+08:00

hasanah:pelik atol aku
bukan iis kita berbual biasae jek ke

Maryam :idk

hasanah:u know aft taht incident. i think ill start speaking properly now

aku pun pelik

maryam :tu sbb lah

haha

yelah.. idk

why???

Hasanah :when in iis. my english mcm superb gler

Maryam: i know honey

Hasanah: berambus jek.. it took me awhile to hear my own accent
pelik

Maryam:i was there
kinda jealous by it

Hasanah:hahahaha..
seriously?

Maryam :yelah

Hasanah:lol.. come on.. urs better now

Maryam :aku bukanyer pandai sgt

Hasanah: well thats why lah.. i mcm kene tmpar ah
so im working hard on getting back to it now
oi! pandai ok.

Maryam :you'll get it
bck to ur british accent
Hasanah:really. i do hv it?

haha

kadang2 i rasa mcm perasan lak tu
gosh i you

Maryam :of course u can hve it again.

hasanah: gosh i miss you!

heartbroken quotes

2011-06-01T03:26:00.001+08:00

It’s kinda fucked up isn’t it?
How all of a sudden, someone just wakes up and decides to never talk to you again. No reason. No explanation. No words said. They just leave you hanging like you never meant anything to them, and what hurts the most is how they made it look so easy.

2011-05-20T02:28:00.001+08:00

Girls are like apples. The best ones are at the top of the trees. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think there is something wrong with them,when,in reality,they are amazing. They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree

to my dear friend melting snow.

2011-05-18T00:51:00.000+08:00

dumbfounded.
instilled with pain.
heartbroken.
shocked.

ive never thought i will get this from you.
all the hurt that you gave me.
i forgive you once, i accepted your apology,
it was hard,
now im here broken.
stuck with emotions.
confused with all that is happening.

where are you,
when i need my answers.
why dissappear when i need someone here.
what went wrong.
where you go.

why am i here sitting alone.
why am i here controlling my tears.
why am i here questioning.
why am i here even waiting for you.

the pain here.
penetrating.
enforcing.
breaking.
falling.
giving.
crippling.

thank you so much for causing the pain.

老鼠爱大米 lao shu ai da mi (Mouse Love Rice)

2011-05-11T03:41:00.000+08:00

for my love.

2011-05-10T02:23:00.001+08:00

It doesn't make sense to let go of something you have wanted for so long, but it also doesn't make sense to hold on when there's nothing there.

Amri - Cinta Pertama

2011-05-03T22:44:00.000+08:00

to my love.

2011-04-26T02:31:00.002+08:00

Love my boo forever. Ill never forget this day. Thank you. Rm 23 =) sorry for that. We've talked about our future but its still not solve yet. Got a long discussion ahead to fix things. From my point of view, we are fixed already. Just trying to figure out what are we? We cant say we are friends in benefits cause both of us love each other so so much and very much addicted to each other. Gosh he is just so so perfect. I love it when you talk boo. Got you back Love. Got to focus! So discussion will be continued.

formspring.me

2011-04-20T00:43:00.001+08:00

Anything u want to know from me. http://formspring.me/foolishfruit

2011-04-08T11:48:00.000+08:00

I ♥ my boo.

2011-04-05T18:38:00.000+08:00

If this 3 years, it wasn't a relationship.
Means all this while i am single.
you and me never existed.
then all this while i said no to other guys cause i have you
and now your words meant that there wasn't us.
then who have i been in love with.
who did i gave my heart and love to.
you had just said the worst thing ever.
how messed up is that.
you should have never said that.

brokenheart
foolish
apple

2011-04-05T18:20:00.000+08:00

i cant believe you let us go.
i cant believe you let me go.
i cant believe for the 3 years you said it wasn't a relationship
i cant believe you said you needed a person right there for you.
i cant believe you deleted and block me off from facebook.
i cant believe you really hurt me this bad.
i cant believe you are the person im so madly in love with.
i cant believe when my second thoughts became true.
the worst thing ever i cant believe its from YOU.

2011-04-05T02:00:00.000+08:00

i love him
and i want to be with him
for the rest of my life
and im prepared with whatever crap i face
but i never did told him to leave his family

but now its all dreams,
illusions.
i wish he would stand up for us,
take a chance,
but i understand now.
thats why i pull myself out
thats why i accept the fact
he aint for me

he is some other chick guy
spending life together
im going crazy, pulling everything
to pieces. pushing all the pain away

i wanna wait for him till he marries
and when he does, then ill move on
as then i know there isn't hope anymore.
as for now ill keep waiting for you.

i wasnt joking when i said i love you.
my heart chooses you.
when i said i had second thoughts.
it was not on you. its abt how i feel.
Im so afraid. afraid of losing u.
afraid of not getting to be with u
afraid of us letting go.
afraid of this that just had happened.
this shit we are facing.

i wanna hold on, but i dont know how to.
im still holding on, but the string is only with me
aint with u no more.
i need you, i want you.
parts of my dreams shattered.
piecing that up too.
hopefully ill be fine.
i love you i love you.

mmv - tell me why

2011-04-04T23:37:00.000+08:00

Just crying it all out.

♫ MMV - Always & Forever

2011-04-04T23:29:00.000+08:00

wish it was this way. <3

MMV: I Love You But

2011-04-04T23:08:00.000+08:00

MMV - Letting Go

2011-04-04T22:57:00.000+08:00

We were only half way there. I was holding on and still holding on despite knowing i should let you go. I love you booby. When i said i had second thoughts abt us. I was trying to tell you I'm scared. Scared of losing u. Scared that you would leave me. Eventually u did. I've never doubted u once.

[MMV]Let Go by Kristine Mirelle (Sandy's Request xD)

2011-04-04T22:51:00.000+08:00

Keyshia Cole - Got To Get My Heart Back

2011-04-04T00:55:00.000+08:00

I got to be strong.

My heart is crush by a former love.

2011-03-25T02:31:00.000+08:00

Melvin says:
how r u
foolishfruit says:
am fine thank you
Melvin says:
k. howz ur Mum?
foolishfruit says:
she is good to
how abt u?
Melvin says:
I'm fine
foolishfruit says:
how is mum?
Melvin says:
all Gud
foolishfruit says:
hope ur dad too
=)
Melvin says:
they're all Gud
foolishfruit says:
is he giving u enough money now?
Melvin says:
howz ur bf
foolishfruit says:
u mean the k.l guy?
Melvin says:
i mean ur bf
foolishfruit says:
i dont have a bf dear
Melvin says:
oh..ok
foolishfruit says:
how is ur gf then?
Melvin says:
we broke up...I'm trynna get back wit her
foolishfruit says:
okies. good luck
Melvin says:
fanks\
foolishfruit says:
welcome. glad that u got a girl u want to be with so much
and trying to get back with her

Melvin says:
yeah
thanks
foolishfruit says:
yeah no wahala
Melvin says:
lol
foolishfruit says:
what?
Melvin says:
it's funny u said "no wahala"
foolishfruit says:
yeah alot of people says that when i reply something in pidgin
cause am malay right
Melvin says:
its ok
foolishfruit says:
haha. yups yups..
one mof my nigerian brother taught me
online thru webcam
so how is school?
Melvin says:
fine
foolishfruit says:
so if ur getting back ur gf. ull settling in singapore then?
Melvin says:
can't tell u about that
foolishfruit says:
well alright
Good for u if u do then
Melvin says:
k
foolishfruit says:
yeah. so ur not going to sleep yet?
Melvin says:
soon
foolishfruit says:
ah okies. cool.
Melvin says:
yope
foolishfruit says:

Melvin says:
I'm off
Nitz
foolishfruit says:
sweetdreams
Melvin says:
u too

2011-03-22T03:43:00.001+08:00

Can't help but wait for you. No matter how long it takes. ♥

2011-03-17T00:18:00.004+08:00

Yeen Seruji

Ana, abg kat singapore!! haha. Dia ckp if u want to meet, just let him know. Nanti i gve u his hp no. Ok? i ask him to buy me mp4 oq mp3 tapi dia ckp mahal kt situ. how much eh mp4/mp3 kat sana?

2011-03-17T00:18:00.002+08:00

Abg Azeem: wna meet u too....biar rashidah farhana n azimah jeles, me takin pic. wit u LOL ...
Hasanah: aku rasa kn inda fair .. abg dah datang Singapore 2 kali =p ... ok now motivation untuk g Brunei ni. ♥ happy all of the sudden.

2011-03-06T02:40:00.001+08:00

hahah omg.
i love you
stop teasing me

hahahahahahahahaha
i love you more baby

i know that
ur the only guy who stuck to me
despite all the nonsense

because you are a golden that is why

yeah but why guys chuck me out that easliy

dont u ever think abt it love?

im sorry

nope

baby its because they don't really know you

ok now myb that is true

so what do u know abt me

may be its because they didn't love you, and may be you didn't love them as much

awwww.

2011-03-06T02:11:00.000+08:00

Her: Do u know what im talking abt?
Him: the one about your heart right?
Her:yeah
weird right
its like wow.
hahaha
and u know the shortest time we spend
let me see out of total of 2 years and the half
we actually spent 5 hrs tgtr right?

Him: Hahahahahahaha.. that is soo true

Oh Apple of My eyes, Hasanah! from Abdul Syafiq

2011-03-05T17:45:00.000+08:00

My friend the wind will come from the hills
When dawn will rise, he'll wake me again
My friend the wind will tell me a secret
He shares with me, he shares with me

My friend the wind will come from the north
With words of love, she whispered for me
My friend the wind will say she loves me

I'll hear her voice and the words
That he brings from Helenimou
Sweet as a kiss are the songs of Aghapimou
Soft as the dew is the touch of Manoulamou
Oh oh oh

We'll share a dream where I'm never away from Helenimou
Blue are the days like the eyes of Aghapimou
Far from the world will I live with Manoulamou
Oh oh oh

My friend the wind go back to the hills
And tell my love a day will soon come
Oh friendly wind you tell her a secret
You know so well, oh you know so well

My friend the wind will come from the north
With words of love, she whispered for me
My friend the wind will say she loves me
And me alone, and me alone

I'll hear her voice and the words
That he brings from Helenimou
Sweet as a kiss are the songs of Aghapimou
Soft as the dew is the touch of Manoulamou
Oh oh oh

We'll share a dream where I'm never away from Helenimou
Blue are the days like the eyes of Aghapimou
Far from the world will I live with Manoulamou
Oh oh oh

from Abdul Syafiq

2011-03-05T17:44:00.000+08:00

I hold my pen to write on th African reed again
About what has infected my heart.
A feeling from deep within.

My friend the Wind
Go tell her

If i was a rainbow
I'd show ma colours for you
If i was a song bird
I'd Sing a song for you

If you take the sun and the moon
Take away the stars at night
Your Beauty
Will always be my guide and light.

So beautiful such a miracle
That you would give up all men just for me
All I wish to do
Is fall more in love with you
"coz this world doesnt own me anymore
One thing that I do know for sure...

If i was a rainbow
I'd show ma colours for you
If i was a song bird
I'd Sing a song for you.

Mytha - Tentang Mimpiku

2011-03-04T02:55:00.000+08:00

For you my hero =D

I pray that this love will last.

2011-03-03T02:58:00.000+08:00

Baby I Love You more than life itself
Another day without you makes me feel so empty
I need your touch and lips and your sweet loving
Without you, i'd become nothing
I need you forever baby
I Love You

u know words are just words
but when it comes to you
they are not words to me anymore

Because they are more than words.. They are my way of my heart explaining itself to you

i miss your voice so much
especially when you say 'I Love You
its is amazing how you make my mind twirl

snoopy and scooby - two perfectly kids of mine =)

Peterpan - Jauh Mimpiku

2011-02-08T02:00:00.000+08:00

dont wanna hurt myself anymore.

confused on losing someone

2011-02-05T15:51:00.001+08:00

I don't understand why we can't be friends with our exs. They were part of our lives and we had spend time with them. If the relationship don't work out, treasure the friendship behind it. ♥

my ex boyfriend

2011-02-02T01:11:00.000+08:00

blaque - when the last teardrop falls

2011-02-01T01:45:00.000+08:00

to you know who u are!

2011-01-30T00:21:00.000+08:00

dont use me as an excuse ah for what uve been doing before i came into ur life. seriously. Myb the saying is true and thanks for proving it to your own self who is supposedly to be righteous and wanted to change. But apparently not. A player is always a player. But if he really wanna change. As much as the girl supposedly played him. Don't you think at all cost you deserve it cause of doing that to her too. Well its not that im saying i did it. Even if i say i didn't oh well. You will claim i did. so im not going to be arguing with a fool and made myself a fool infront of you. the reason i still stick thru with u cause i really trusted u and i wanted to change too. PLUS THE FACT THAT I STARTED TO FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU eventhough after what ive said to u out of my own foolishness. I ACCEPTED THE FACT YOU TOLD ME YOU WERE A PLAYER AND THAT YOU WANTED TO CHANGE. How will i know i hurt you alot and then somehow i became the reason of your own behavior. Your own actions is not determined by me. Seriously. You can be the smartest in the world but you can never ever read what is in my head and most importantly my heart. I have been hiding alot from people and indirectly not being truthful but that is because I dont see the need why i need to tell people abt my feelings and my situations that im facing at that time. At the end of the day people will still judge me and give me that fake face and deep down that hurts the most. But now not getting to let out what i felt for you is slowly getting to me and hurting me at all times. Well i wanted you to be infront of me so that i can say it out and see your reaction but I never got the chance till that day you told me we're done and now you are with another.

Tear drops
howling in desire
what is in the heart
cant be express
as the time passes by
it slowly consumes all of me
you appear out of nowhere
in my dreams turning it into a nightmare
which i knew i can never sleep in peace
deep down i wish you will hear me out
right infront of you
giving you my sweetest smile
and telling you how much i love you.

copyright hasanah_zafi poems.
apple ♥

Keyshia Cole - I Remember - Im hearbroken with you.

2011-01-16T22:39:00.000+08:00

To Melvin.

2011-01-16T22:04:00.001+08:00

I dont get you. When i tell you the truth. You said I'm lying. So how else can i put it then? If U know im lying, why would i bother telling u the truth? Why even bother asking if u claim u know everything even before i said it. The truth is im a fool cause i gave all my honesty to you. If you cant trust that. That means all this while my feelings are all lies to you. ♥ heartbroken.

2011-01-13T00:58:00.001+08:00

atleast u see how u can mean something to someone so great
yet ur not to a mere human who is not even famous

Real Life True Story ♥

2011-01-12T23:00:00.002+08:00

Officially not quitting Figure skating cause Ice Queen Michelle Kwan actually remembered me and told me that i was really shy and she wanted to talk to me but there wasn't time. OMG! Dreaming?! Nope. Real Life True Story 12 Jan 11. Lucky Me! ♥ MK

10 January 2011 ~ ♥ MK ~ Figure Skating ~

2011-01-10T22:23:00.000+08:00

you friggin dillusional smart ass.

2011-01-08T02:28:00.001+08:00

It hurts so bad when u've been with someone and u've put yourself thru for him. When he just turn his back on you. The next thing u know you're running around lost looking for the missing puzzle piece. ♥.

2011-01-02T22:56:00.000+08:00

tk tahu ehk. nk katakan dis new year sucks lah seh. i lost a loveable friendship that i thought i would never lose. i got into an argument and hurt my love ones cause of some idiot. why am i feeling so remorseful of myself? im already hurt along time ago, back then. over and over again this happens. aniways before i jump out from my house and die. i wanna say to Fafa Farzanah i love her so much.

2011-01-02T16:40:00.001+08:00

i realise being in love hurts
i just wanna forget all this crap
and concentrate on something i really lovve
which never fails me
as much as we cant get it right
we will always get to perfect it
i love my skates ♥

kecewa dan terlalu hampa.

2011-01-02T16:23:00.001+08:00

Kau menghancurkan hatiku utk melihatmu. Jauh ku menyepi sendirian. Ku akan terus melangkah ke hadapan dan akhirnya tiada lagi bayangan mu di hidup ku ini. -hasanah zafi.

Peterpan - Ku Katakan Dengan Indah

2011-01-02T02:27:00.000+08:00

Everything is said inside here. My feelings right now.

2010-12-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

went out with alison and we had fun! and gosh i got damn good things to be happy abt. like seriously! hahaha.. then went off at 11 from dg and met Melvin and Tweety again. =) just my luck. and since im the kind of person who will chase to say hi. so i did. =). its called being friendly that is. aniways. reach home. didnt get lock out. gosh i had so much fun with Alison. we should do more outings. and i cant wait!!

2010-12-29T00:35:00.001+08:00

We all pay a price for whatever we get, Sometimes its value may worth more than the price, At other times,Its the reverse. Whatever the case it may be, We still pay a price anyways... Melvin Otobo.

2010-12-27T01:14:00.001+08:00

shit happens for good things to happen back to you. =)

"Aku Jatuh Cinta" Liyana Jasmay (OST Duhai Si Pari Pari) HD Music Video

2010-12-25T01:28:00.000+08:00

To: The person once i dedicated the song to. =)
Who taught me before my exams and stared at me to study.

2010-12-24T01:54:00.001+08:00

Wait it out. Don't contact him and let him come to you. See if he makes the effort. See if his feelings are strong enough for him to not let you go. You want to know how he truly feels about your relationship don't you?

I know it will be hard to resist the temptation to just call him, but don't.

Whenever you get the urge to call him, call a friend or leave the house and go somewhere, anything to distract you from making the call. If you just can't shake the temptation, maybe try writing an email/letter to him but don't send it.

If he really cares he will let go of his pride and be the first to call you.

Read more: http://www.lovingfromadistance.com/advice27.html#ixzz18xUi1a3w

my hero.

2010-12-23T00:36:00.002+08:00

ill choose him over all the other guys in the whole wide world when it comes to be with the person you wanna be with forever~

2010-12-19T18:19:00.001+08:00

this whole freaking month is fucked up. almost everyday!
gosh. i think im going insane.

Christina Aguilera - Can't Hold Us Down

2010-12-19T18:07:00.000+08:00

2010-12-19T02:51:00.001+08:00

...MARRIAGE...

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release.

The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outsidethe door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife.The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.

My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with thedivorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.

Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

Lady Gaga - Bad Romance

2010-12-19T02:36:00.000+08:00

2010-12-18T23:58:00.000+08:00

had a great day swimming and also sliding on the slides like 20 times or more than that actually.
ended up with a frustration situation.
Met Melvin and Tweety with Fateeqah.
How funny life seems to be u know.
When you already kinda move on and trying to stop whatever crap u going thru.
You actually happened to bump into stuffs and u had to control how much off all the things u wanna imposed on a person. I mean like honestly. I was about to break down but then again i gotta be strong right.
I dont know. What i know now i wanna cry so bad but the tears are just not coming out. Too much hurt deep inside.

Wish I never met you- Trina

2010-12-17T23:49:00.001+08:00

Wish I never met you- Trina

2010-12-17T23:49:00.000+08:00

Tynisha Keli - Defeated (Lyrics)

2010-12-17T23:03:00.000+08:00

P!nk - Please Don't Leave Me

2010-12-16T13:58:00.000+08:00

Avril Lavigne - My Happy Ending

2010-12-15T02:53:00.000+08:00

2010-12-14T02:05:00.002+08:00

AMO actually deleted me from his fb. Ouch. Tears forming again.

2010-12-13T21:42:00.000+08:00

AMO says We're done. =(

I'm don wif you Hasanah..keep affiliating wit them. And don't eva mention my name to any of them!

hahaha. I don't know why tears are forming.

Gothic Lolita Doll

2010-12-03T03:04:00.000+08:00

Ashanti - Don't Let Them

2010-12-01T01:14:00.000+08:00

1st Lady- Time

2010-11-27T22:43:00.000+08:00

2010-11-27T22:08:00.000+08:00

ntah ehk mcm mana nk luahkan. Hati ni rasa perit pun ada. rasa sedih. rasa kecewa. kau nak aku tunggu kan kau lagi 4 tahun. mmg ku dh tunggu kau 5 tahun nk tambah kan jek lagi 4 tahun tu. ntah lah apa salahku. sebelum tu mak aku yang cakap dia tak leh terima kau tapi aku tetap berusaha untuk dapat kan restu jikalau akhirnya kita bersama. tetapi apa yang kau katakan ni. kenapa tiba2 sahaja ada cerita ni. ayah kau dah tentukan masa depan kau. siap kau dah jumpa bakal isteri kau. lepas tu aku kat sini bagaiman? kerana ayah kau uat keputusan gitu. aku berundur diri. aku tak sanggup nk melibatkan diri dalam hal keluarga kau. ntah lah kenapa aku begitu cinta kan kau. ku sanggup bertahan di negeri yang lain. ku sanggup ke sana hanya menemui engkau apabila kau mengatakan yang kau hanya perlu jumpa aku sementara supaya kami dapat kekal lagi. ku keliru. keputusan mu. apa yang harus ku lakukan sekarang. pasrah. harus kah aku sambung menunggu dan mengharapkan sesuatu yang tak mungkin terjadi. jikalau engkau atol sayang kan aku. engkau akan ingat semua janji2 mu. engkau akan memberanikan diri untuk tegak kan kasih sayang kita. omg. ku tak tahu. berlimpah air mata ini mengalir. mata ku tembel. sehari semalam ku tidak dapat melelapkan mataku. ku baca komik gempak untuk menutupi kesedihan ini. sudahlah. kau takkan melihat tangisi ini kerana aku hanya ingin melihat kebahagiaan mu. terlalu byk ku mahu berkata2. tapi akan ku berdiam sementara. keputusan di tangan dikau. ku akan tetap bahagia tatkala hati ku akan memberontak dan ingin kau disisiku. keliru.

Beyoncé - Me, Myself And I

2010-11-26T03:02:00.000+08:00

2010-11-23T02:07:00.001+08:00

I wouldn't want it any other way baby
you are meant for me
your every touch will bring me joy
your kisses make me forget the world
I love you baby

i just sent you a text
see we are in sync
we are meant for one another

well her man loves her to death and misses her
and her man has nothing else in his mind but her
and wants to hold her sooooo badly!!!

seriously baby everytime i talk to you i feel like i am going insane
i just need to have you

you stimulate me in every possible way
baby i love you
and i can't stop saying that

baby the world isn't all roses and
unicorns as you probably know.
it should get you down.
you can't change who you are
and that is why makes us great
if you are beaten down by something like this,
then you have failed

BABY I LOVE YOU TO DEATH
sayang that is why i am here
to love you and care for you
whenever you need me
to give you advice and make you smile
i will never stop ok baby
i wish i could kiss you now and
tell you that everything is going to better now

i need you you know that right
really.. so you think that i don't need you then eh?

nope
not at all
OBVIOUSLY I DO DUMMY
why would you even ask?

a hybrid poem

Black Eyed Peas - Where Is The Love?

2010-11-19T12:18:00.000+08:00

5th of Nov 10

2010-11-09T02:40:00.000+08:00

I met my twin atlast. Gosh i feel so so happy when i see her. Wish i had more time as i got to rush and meet him after that. She is so cute with her accent. Like seriously. Haha. That is what i call British accent baby. Not pretenders. Work it girl. Aniways i had a fantastic time with him. He is so so cute. Love everything about him. When i say everything i mean everything. Well i guess things work out well. He sounded like Tinchy stryder so much also. hehehe.

To my twin: Ill be coming back to see you insyallah and also ill save up to get to UK just to see you alright.

Had the awesomest time of this year coming back to my perfection. Both of you made me whole again.

apple forever in your hearts and yours in mine