i hate my self but love myself...
i love others cause God wans me to...
i m veri funny...
sometimes veri irritatin....
i like to know ppl...
wan to noe mi be my fren lah...... ...
n also i m a half malay...not chinese as wat i wrote abt..
Damn, damn, damn...
what to tell about myself...hmm....
how about I write poems about my life, things that happen to me.
Sometimes when I get angry,sad or just plain depressed(which I am pretty much all the time)
I hate my life and I pretty much lock up all my feelings and
when I m at school since I am a prisoner in my own body as if i wear this mask hiding who I truly am...
the side of me were I question my own sanity and the side that will never heal, never be the same.
I bear the scars both physically and emotionally.
Hiding both from everyone around me.
Well I think that is enough for now.
Oopz wait I have a bit more 2 say.
Questions that I ask myself>>>
1.would anybody miss me if I just disappeared?
2. NoBODY knows..
3. I hate them so much and I just want to break down and cry right here but i must wait till i am by myself because if someone found out ppl would look down on me and feel sorry for me , and the few adults that know try to help but just makes it worse. Of cuz I’ll say that I am fine. but that is a lie.... p.s WILL U UNDERSTAND ME????MY PERSONALITY DEPENDS ON YOU