19 at last~

todae is my bdae..
how cool is dat..
is when i get older and tryin to act as if life is all dat..
im happy to get older each dae..
it aint much..
its just shows how life is going to end soon for me..
and ill meet my creator when my time comes..
its realistic isnt it..
as u aged..
the less tym u spent on earth..
ill be really happy if i age and i get younger..
will dat ever happen..
in ur dreams and mine myb..

~so today i have to strive harder
cuz my time might be near
i cant wait any longer and
lose all what i desired.

i might be 19 but death comes any tym.
so all i hope is i get to be a better person now
so in preparation for what im going to get
in my after life.
and most important is to buck up
and be successful..
be who i wanna be..

Thanks Allah SWT for letting me celebrate this day.
There is no other way i could say but Alhamdullilah
dat i live through this day and now here i am..
19 years old..life might be longer or shorter for me
i might never know.
but i do know is whatever sins ive done is forgiven..
i love you Rabb.I really do.Amin

so that is why i dun celebrate my bdae yet i do for ppl..
cuz each tym my bdae comes..
it will just remind me how near i am to death..
contridicting isnt it..
my reason to celebrate ppl bdae and event..
cuz i wanna see people smile and be happy on a particular dae..
not all days are special for everyone..


thanks for those who send me their wishes..