my sucky WEEKEND

i finish memorising surah al munafiqun today.but i have surah at taghrabun to finish for tomorrow. that is alrtye with me.
the thing that upset me most is abt a guy from my old sch. Since when did i talked to him to others and let out my feelings. I didnt ok and if i did that was like so long ago lah.zaman batu seh stone ages.

and only like less than 10 dat noes abt my so long ago crush. I got that feeling who told but its ok. I dont care aniways.

And all ive been talking now is a friend of mine and also i have less interection with people now. So it doesnt make sense as in what he was saying.

Im also pissed that people use my name to go out and enjoy with whoever they are with. Its like i really dont mind covering for you but im not going to lie to anyone parents. You enjoyed going out while im stuck at home having flu.
Does that seems fair and its ok if you reach home on time but NO!
Your parents need to call me and ask me your whereabout.
WtF i don't need all this shit ,i have problems on my own and i do not have time to go out. If you do used my name .next time think first and be considerate.
I ALREADY HAVE A HUGE PILE OF SINS AND I DO NOT NEED YOURS TO ADD ON! and if u still do need to use my name. BE AT HOME BEFORE YOUR PARENTS LOOK FOR ME.

I had enough of all this. It is ok if u did go out with me
It is ok if u did tell me.
It is ok if u didnt have your parents calling me
It is ok If u do know your own timing.
And it is ok if u hate me now.

Cause im just a normal human being with feeelings.

p.s atleast you should have the iniciative to tell me. I would have been ok.
You Know Who You Are!