to you know who u are!

dont use me as an excuse ah for what uve been doing before i came into ur life. seriously. Myb the saying is true and thanks for proving it to your own self who is supposedly to be righteous and wanted to change. But apparently not. A player is always a player. But if he really wanna change. As much as the girl supposedly played him. Don't you think at all cost you deserve it cause of doing that to her too. Well its not that im saying i did it. Even if i say i didn't oh well. You will claim i did. so im not going to be arguing with a fool and made myself a fool infront of you. the reason i still stick thru with u cause i really trusted u and i wanted to change too. PLUS THE FACT THAT I STARTED TO FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU eventhough after what ive said to u out of my own foolishness. I ACCEPTED THE FACT YOU TOLD ME YOU WERE A PLAYER AND THAT YOU WANTED TO CHANGE. How will i know i hurt you alot and then somehow i became the reason of your own behavior. Your own actions is not determined by me. Seriously. You can be the smartest in the world but you can never ever read what is in my head and most importantly my heart. I have been hiding alot from people and indirectly not being truthful but that is because I dont see the need why i need to tell people abt my feelings and my situations that im facing at that time. At the end of the day people will still judge me and give me that fake face and deep down that hurts the most. But now not getting to let out what i felt for you is slowly getting to me and hurting me at all times. Well i wanted you to be infront of me so that i can say it out and see your reaction but I never got the chance till that day you told me we're done and now you are with another.


Tear drops
howling in desire
what is in the heart
cant be express
as the time passes by
it slowly consumes all of me
you appear out of nowhere
in my dreams turning it into a nightmare
which i knew i can never sleep in peace
deep down i wish you will hear me out
right infront of you
giving you my sweetest smile
and telling you how much i love you.

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