i love him
and i want to be with him
for the rest of my life
and im prepared with whatever crap i face
but i never did told him to leave his family

but now its all dreams,
illusions.
i wish he would stand up for us,
take a chance,
but i understand now.
thats why i pull myself out
thats why i accept the fact
he aint for me

he is some other chick guy
spending life together
im going crazy, pulling everything
to pieces. pushing all the pain away

i wanna wait for him till he marries
and when he does, then ill move on
as then i know there isn't hope anymore.
as for now ill keep waiting for you.

i wasnt joking when i said i love you.
my heart chooses you.
when i said i had second thoughts.
it was not on you. its abt how i feel.
Im so afraid. afraid of losing u.
afraid of not getting to be with u
afraid of us letting go.
afraid of this that just had happened.
this shit we are facing.

i wanna hold on, but i dont know how to.
im still holding on, but the string is only with me
aint with u no more.
i need you, i want you.
parts of my dreams shattered.
piecing that up too.
hopefully ill be fine.
i love you i love you.